My Story

I would like to write the long version of my story, but it is late, and I don't have much time. For now, I will write a few things, just in case someone in need happens upon my blog before I get to writing the whole story.

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am a daughter of God. I have a sexual addiction. 

I am writing this blog mostly as a journal for myself at this moment in time. But perhaps, in the future, when I gain courage and feel that it is the right way to go, I will make this blog public. 

Sexual addiction is a real struggle, and it is more common among women than most people think. My sexual curiosity started at a very young age and only grew from there. I would say I was about 12 when my addiction began. Today, June 10, 2015, is my one year anniversary of sobriety and recovery. It has been, and continues to be, a long, hard, beautiful, amazing, peaceful, grace-filled journey. I am forever grateful to my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ for plucking me from my awful state of misery and despair. I only had to think about changing and turn in Their direction for Them to scoop me up in Their loving arms and hold me tight and tell me everything would be okay. The Atonement is real. It covers EVERYTHING. I didn't used to believe that--no matter how many times people told me. For a long time, I believed I had gone too far. I truly believed I was going to hell. But thankfully, I have found the 12 steps, recovery, wonderful support in the way of friends and family, and Jesus Christ. He is the answer. I am so thankful to be where I am today and so anxious to continue on my journey and grow and change in ways only Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ see. I can become like Them. I can feel and see the light. It is in me.